Hum dill de chuke Sanam (Trans: I've lost my heart)

I first realized that I had fallen for Kevin during homecoming our sophomore year in high school. Kevin and I were both in leadership class so we were involved with all the activities that were going on around the school and we somehow always ended up either being partners or on the same committee. I remember that year Kevin and I were in charge of organizing the hallway decorating contest. It basically meant that we had to come up with, write down and distribute to the class representatives the rules and times for the contest, get judges and make sure everything was cleaned up at the end of the day. We were sitting in the computer lab typing up the rules when this girl walked in and sat down on the computer opposite us when the whole lab was empty. Kevin glanced up at her and whispered to me "god, she's hot". At his words I looked up at her and felt like someone had punched me in the stomach.




He was starting at her, eyes wide and I was looking at him and felt like throwing up. I made up some excuse and grabbing my bag fled the lab and practically ran outside. Taking a deep breath, I wondered why I left like puking and punching the other girl at the same time. I turned around to head back inside and onto my next class when I heard someone call my name. I looked around and saw my other best friend, Merry, manically waving her hand and telling me to wait up for her.

“Where have you been” I asked when she finally caught up to me

“I had to a dentist appointment today” she said. She stopped suddenly and looked at me, “what’s wrong”

“Nothing's wrong” I said, “I’m just really stressed”

“Don’t lie to me Rory” Merry said turning to look at me, “I know when you are stressed and when there’s something wrong”

I didn’t say anything for a long moment and finally looked at her and said “Something happened a little while ago that I’m just a little confused about”

“What happened” she asked

I looked at her and said “I was working in the computer lab with Kevin when this girl came in. Kevin noticed her right away and whispered to me how hot she was. At his words, I felt like someone had punched me”

Merry looked at my face and laughed “Finally. God I thought you were never going to realize that you’d fallen for Kevin”

“I didn’t fall for Kevin” I started to say before she interrupted me “Yea you did. You have been in love with him for as long as you’ve known him but for some reason you didn’t realize it yourself. Everyone who knows you knows that Kevin is a lot more to you than just a friend”

I stood there in complete shock and suddenly realized that she was right. I did love Kevin as more than a friend. Then I had a scary thought.

“Wait you said everyone knows that I have a thing for Kevin. Does that mean Kevin knows too?” I asked thinking how mortifying it would be if he did know

“No he doesn’t know that you have a think for him. He doesn’t know himself that he has a thing for you as well. You two have been so oblivious to your feelings” Merry said.

“Kevin has a thing for me…”